WHERE IS BEN???

Pardon the caps lock, but I'm serious. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? I've been hearing crazy rumours, and I want to know you are okay!! CALL ME.

Aaaaarrrgh!! Noa (and a few others, like Noa's roommate Terance and some of my instructors) have been bugging me and bugging me to join CGSociety. I keep trying to say that I'm not good enough for CGSociety or ConceptArt because all the people seem to be professional, and I'm just a lowly student... but they all keep saying that I'm too good NOT to join and show off my stuff/actually get some decent critiques for a change. But I'm AFRAID that I'm just going to get my work ripped apart by people on those sites!!! I'm NOT GOOD ENOUGH! Not yet anyway. I'll get there someday, which is what I keep telling Noa, but he just says I'll never get around to it unless they keep pushing me to. >_< I just... I dunno... I know I bitch and moan about how people on DeviantArt and SheezyArt never give crits, only "Wow UR SO GOOD, I less-than-three ur workz!!!" but.. I'm still too much of a chicken shit to go to a "higher" community art site. I just don't think I'm good enough to stand with those artists yet.

Ugh... anyway... >_> Noa finally got me to reluctantly sign up for the sites, even though I fought him and complained the entire time... I uploaded my Gardenia and Eden illustration. I don't think anyone's going to like my style though. There stuff is primarily "painterly" instead of my super-stylized cartoon stuff. *sigh*

On a semi-related note, I've purchased the domain for my portfolio site. It will be www.gardeniamarvally.com. It's not up yet, but the layout is designed and lovely (in my opinion.) I'm just working out the kinks in Dreamweaver, then it'll be all good ta go! Please enjoy them!

Smoochies to all,
-Sam

Tomorrow I have a checkup appointment at the hospital so they can remove my current splint and check how my crippled foot is doing. They want to check if the abrasions are healing, since they can't do the surgery with the worst abrasion right on the spot they'll need to cut open. It must be the spot where one of the bone fragments broke through my skin. Lovely visual, eh? With my toes visible through the open part of my splint, I can see that the discolouration of the skin has spread and gotten much nastier looking. It's dark purplish red and moving onto toes that weren't even hurt by the fall. It's not a bruise, I don't think, because when I poke the skin it doesn't hurt unless I'm foolishly jabbing near the fracture area (which I have done, so don't give me too much credit, lol). Anywhooo, enough about that silly business.

I got a job today! Random? Not so much, no. Noa and Rae have been dropping not too subtle hints for a while that I should just work at Elbasha Cafe across the street. Especially since I'm friends with the owner. So I visited Rae when she was working there today, and she gave me another free gyro ^_^ Yummers. If I keep getting free delicious foodstuffs because I'm injured, I should really get hurt more often. Just a thought. Heh. Mahmood sat with me outside and we discussed life, love, and the soul. As usual, I asked about how business was doing. We talked about that for a while and then I posed the idea of me working for him which he was all for. Of course, this is going to be after I've healed. But hey; I've totally got a job lined up and ready for me. One goal for the future... check. Go Sam!

I really need to start making my portfolio site. It may be a year+ until I graduate, but my academic director keeps asking if I've got one yet because he wants to send the address to potential employers. I guess he thinks pretty highly of me. Or my mad art skillz anyway. (Tooting my own horn! *gasp*) After getting over my disgruntlement about samanthalarson.com being taken already, I decided that gardeniamarvally.com was the best choice. I am totally gonna design a really sweet layout featuring my beautiful blonde magic-wielding babe, and yes... it shall rock to the hardcore. So I bought the domain. Don't know exactly when I'm gonna get around to putting the design together, but I'm looking forward to it.

Side note: I've been renewing my love of those adorable little pixel dolls and pixel art in general. I'm not really good at it. But then, I've never really tried. Some sites have dolls you can "adopt" and display, but others have these super fun doll makers. There's one I found that I've wasted many a good hour playing around and making all kinds of stylishly dressed girlies ^_^ Hey, I'm a girl after all. I like playing with dolls. Anyway, back to the site. It's the HUGEST doll maker site I've been able to find, and anything you make you can display. [Abigail Pixel Dolls] So that means, any pixel dollies I put here are gonna be from this site. Credit where credit's due. Also, it's been fun to readjust the colours. To.. green and aqua, as is so utterly predictable coming from me.
But I knows what I likes.

I really want to make some dolls of Gardenia and Korus now. My friend Sute on DevArt is making a pixel doll illustration of Korus, Aria, and Gar together for me to put up on my site like little mascots. 'S gonna be freakin' sweet, I'd wager.

Tiny Blonde One, signing off. For now.
.. I have no life.

Okay, so I don't really need to write an entry about what's going on because the only people who read this are my friends. And you guys already know. I'll cut to the chase: I'm completely, thoroughly, 100% batshit freaked out about getting surgery. The doctor wanted to do it this Tuesday. That's... just too soon. I need a little more time to mentally prepare myself for being stuck with needles, drugged, and cut open. Oh, and let's not forget the placement of metal junk in my foot. So it'll be the following Tuesday. Which is right in the first week of the new term at school. Goodie.

Surgery woes aside, I'm overjoyed that Noa got the Wifi that Ben so graciously bestowed upon me up and running. For the most part anyway. Sometimes it cuts out. But at least I can freakin' CHECK MY DAMN MESSAGES NOW! *does the happy dance (sitting down of course since I can use one of my legs)*

On another note, Noa and I have been having serious yet hypothetical talks about moving in together. And I say hypothetical as a disclaimer, but honestly... it's most likely going to happen. Not for some time of course. We are taking things slow and steady. We'll talk more seriously about it after our 1 year anniversary (I will just be finished with my recovery by then, barring surgery complications). We have also set some goals before that would happen. Him getting his job in the industry (gotta put that shiny new degree to use ^_^), and for me to maaaaybe have a job. Also maybe for him to get that Prias car he wants. I have also promised him that I will quit smoking after my operation. He doesn't like it, and I will respect that it wouldn't be fair to him to be living with him and needing to have a smoke, yanno? Also, the doctor told me that broken bones don't heal as quickly in smokers. Thus, more incentive.
... God, I love Noa. *overly dramatic sigh* ^_^

If anyone has some intriguing suggestions for what he and I should do for our anniversary, please share!

Anyway, hope everyone's peachy with a heaping side of keen. Now if you'll excuse me, I really should be a good girl and get some sleep. Love you all. (extra huggles to Ben and Rae!)

-Gardenia

PS - Heartband members: Don't forget that HBR's 1st birthday is on July 3rd! Aka, SOON!


BEHOLD MY MEEZ! XD